I've been thinking a lot lately about living out God's will for my life. It has been in the past just me trying to figure it out. Search myself instead of asking Him to search me. What do I want? What inspires me? While those are valid questions they do not require implementing God into the equation. But I have been somewhat content in my Christian life of going to church faithfully, paying my tithes, reading my bible, praying, etc. I'm following all of the "rules" right? But at some point there is a restlessness. Why? Is this not good enough? Am I settling for the lukewarm Christian walk that God so warns us about. I think, I know He wants more from us. And I am finally realizing that I cannot dream big enough to satisfy His plan. So why would I try to draw it up myself when I can just choose to obey and trust? I feel as if I've settled into being okay with this world. Being okay with spending my time on meaningless tasks. Being okay with irresponsibly spending His money on "things" that could better be used for eternal things. I have to ask myself...What am I doing with this life He has blessed me with? Did I forget how far he brought me up from. No, I did not forget...but nice dinners, shopping sprees, and fancy coffee sure can make that memory pretty distant. I am not an extremist...although I do see it's upside, but I do believe He blesses us so that we may bless others in return and seek His purpose. I don't want to be caught up in living a routine Christian life. I know where my heart lies. The lost. How do we reach them from our comfortable houses and our fancy cars and our organized extracurricular events? I was lost. I need to remember how Jesus found me. So I am resolved to embark on this journey. The road He intends for all of us I believe. I want to leap with my eyes closed out of my comfort zone and into the assurance that while it may not be glamorous or convinient or easy, His plan is what I am here for and it is where I will find true meaning to this life. Isn't that what the world has been searching for?
"He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked." -1 John 2:6
"Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ." -Philippians 1:6
"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye." -Psalm 32:8
"Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, "This is the way, walk in it," whenever you turn to the right hand or whenever you turn to the left." -Isaiah 30:21