Family. Next to God I believe they are the most important of all. As I sit at my computer after a long day of running here and there. Running to the laundry room and back, running errands around town, running kids to and fro extra curriculars...Cramming, jamming this life. Where does the family fit into all of this. Balance is something I strive for and somehow rarely achieve. I believe it has something to do with all of this running. Learning to say yes to some and no to some is a difficult task for me. Partly, I believe, because I want to be the best mom, give them what I did not have, etc...I'm sure it is every parent's goal. I don't know if growing up with less makes us more susceptible to over achieving this goal, but it has crossed my mind. I do see, as they get older that time is much more precious than any sport I could let them play. Just the other night we were having a candid conversation at the dinner table about what age is the proper age to be allowed to "date". Answers varied and overall were pretty fair. Although, I will say, I sided with Sky who thinks 27 is a good age=) Desi commented, "We should have talks like this more. This was fun." We should, and it was. There were some embarrassing moments and some red faces a few times but it was fun, and funny. It awakened something in me that has been stirring for a few months now. I want to find balance in this world of craziness. Balance to find time with my children and husband, but to also do what it is God wants me to do. I do feel called to be a mother. But as a mother I don't want to just close my kids up in this bubble and not teach them how to be Christ to a lost world. There seems to be this lack of time. Why? The business comes back to the forefront of my mind. So as I hash this out in my mind I am weighing what is enough and what is too much.
"This I say, therefore, and testify in the Lord, that you should no longer walk as the rest of the Gentiles walk, in the futility of their mind, having their understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God, because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart." -Ephesians 4:17-18
Is my heart becomming blind in my busy life?
"For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord.Walk as children of the light."-Ephesians 5:8
Lord, help me, help us to be Your light in this darkness. Lord do in me what I cannot do on my own daily.
"Only take heed to yourself, and diligently keep yourself, lest you forget the things your eyes have seen, and lest they depart from your heart all the days of your life. And teach them to your children and your grandchildren."- Deuteronomy 4:9