The Walk I'm On

No excuses.  Blogging has not been at the forefront of my priorities.  Well it never really is.  So if you are one of my few followers you have probably figured it out by now that I am not a daily blogging kind of gal.  Shoot, I'm not really even a monthly blogging kind of gal!  I do aim to do better.  For my own records that is=)  After all, that is what my objective was in starting this whole thing.  A journal of sorts.  Documenting life, faith, raising kiddos, etc....  It's been an interesting  past few months.  There was the church shopping.  Highly recommended if you need some variety in your life or maybe just a good laugh.  No, really though.  It was hard and I'm still not completely sure we've found the right fit but it fits right now and that's enough.  We get in such ruts I think.  Of how church should or should not be.  What suits us and what doesn't.  I think those things can be fine in moderation as long as they do not get in the way of the real reason we have church.  To meet with God and seek His presence.  I've found that good deeds and godly works can be confused with spiritual wholeness.  But most of all I think I've found that as humans we are drawn to rely on other humans.  As Christians we are drawn to rely on other Christians.  And while that is all well and good, it gets dangerous when we begin to rely on other Christians before we rely on God.  When we are more willing to put our trust in them than fall blindly into God's open embrace.  Now don't get me wrong, we need fellow Christians to confide in, to fellowship with, to hold each other accountable.  But I think I've found that it is very easy to put God on the back burner or as co-counsel to the safer route.  I know God has been teaching me the lesson to look to Him first, for all of my life.  Sometimes I win the test and other times I find myself looking back and wondering why I took the long road.  And sometimes I don't even realize I'm on the long road.  Seasons.  So many different seasons in this walk of faith.  This season feels like the weather in Texas lately.  I think it's time for the rain.